Post 32

I went to your parent-teacher conference last night. I met your advisory teacher. We had zoom called last year, but this was the first time to actually meet. He is a very nice, calm man. I think that is the kind of adult you need and I am grateful he is there for you.

We spoke of you. I think the first thing he asked me, after we sat down, was if I got to see you. And all the emotion that had been trembling inside started to spill out. I quietly answered, ”No, sir. Not in over 18 months.”

He spoke highly of you. He said that you have progressed greatly from last year, which is evident in your grades and attendance, but also in the comments from your teachers. One teacher called you enthusiastic! He also said you are talking to classmates more and that you’ve made friends.

He also said he would pass a message to you if I would like. Without much thought, because I already knew what I was feeling, I said to tell you how proud I am of you and your progress. I also said to tell you I love you. I continued on to say that I miss you immensely and I wasn’t sure how well any of this would be received.

Later as I was driving home, I thought of something else I want you to know.

I am here. I am not going anywhere. I am here when you are ready. I am here no matter how long that takes. I am here.

Love you, J. So much.